Hormones

When I 1st started blogging I vowed that I will be a happy blogger. I want to bring a cheer to people who read my blog. But I guess at this point of time I need a little comfort just from the raging 'sad' hormones.
During my 1st preg I was a happy kid in the day until I retreat to bed by 10.30pm and I would have worrisome or sad thoughts coming to mind. Then tears would flow. This take place quite often in a week until hub would forcefully put me to bed before 10.30pm and avoid talking to me at all course in case he hits a sensitive nerve of mine. My mum constantly reminds me that my kid might turn out a cry baby if i continue with my nightly episodes. That really made me control my hormones to a certain extent subconsciously.
Gosh....this 2nd preg I'm a little more tired maybe cause I got to keep going after Ashlynn. But certain my sad hormones are coming back but this time its anytime anywhere. Anything can trigger my 'eye tap'. Even really happ blogs make me go all emotional.
I MUST!!!! control the hormones.....the 2nd kid is going to be as happy as Ashlynn..........I MUST!!!!

Bonding

My maternal instincts have been settling in. I see dads going out with 2 kids and i tell hub it will be he's turn soon and he smiles. I knows he enjoys time with Ashlynn alone. Coz there will be no naggy wifey in the background calling out to him to watch for Ashlynn etc.

In fact Ashlynn just loves to hang around hub watching him, be it vacuuming the car or gardening. Cant imagine we have double trouble...gosh...but I think hub will hv his way of handling.

These two wkends either hub or myself will bring Ashlynn out to the playground for her morning fun on the slides, swing etc. Coz she wakes up so early at 7am so last Sun he took her out to play before I joined them after an hour more of sleep in. Boy...she was so engrossed in her play she forgot even to hug me when i was in sight. Good that they had their time together.

This wkend I must recover from my cough so I can take her out for a swim.....I miss water fun!!!

Whooping.....

I blew my whole weekend or should I say the whole week. I developed a terrible cough, I think coz my immune system has been alittle weak coupled with close contact with a carrier--->Hub. I'm down......attacked!!!! I hate to cough coz it draws my energy away from the normal hyper self. Hub has also come up with his own theories as always to help me recover. He made me stiff a big steaming jar of hot water filled with EUCALYPTUS essential oil, hammering my back in the mornings and nites to get my phlegm flowing out, getting me to join him in gardening under the hot sun etc. I must say though some theories sound torturing, but they all kind of worked to some extent.
We had an extreme boost of omega 3 too fm all the sashimi we ate on Fri and Sat. Made my mind work doubly hard at nite. And baby 2 probably was having dreams too.
Update on Ashlynn, she's been sleeping well and through the nite and growing fast coz she's increasing her intake of food. Really glad weaning her was not that hard after all.
I wan to GET WELL!!

Tired but feeling good

I'm really really tired from my whooping cough. Got the germs from YY the carrier a few days ago. Gosh its potent!!! But me the stuborn mummy will do all to recover....drink only hot water, no cold food and junk food.
So this evening I'm alone with Ashlynn coz YY has some clients over from Thailand. I was alittle worried about having to put her to bed alone now that the tits are not suppose to be in function. But I tell you she has never been more a darling then today.
Here's her timetable: 8.30pm- Willingly grab the milk bottle and lay down on pillows to drink.
8.40pm- Done!!
9pm- She helps to clear up her toys
9.05pm- Lights out, she climbs into bed snuggles into me and hug me to zz.
9.15pm------ZZZZZZ

It was such a good feeling coz at first I was so afraid she will want the tits but she has been very understanding. I hope this continues and I can soon wean her off. Really so thankful, brought tears to my eyes.

2nd....

Friends that know me will know how much I love kids and I hate the idea of dying alone with no one to carry my picture. What a morbid thought, but really I feel that if I do bring up my kids well they should be filial, I hope so.

Anyway I have been MIA for quite some time, coz 1st I was really busy planning for Ashlynn's birthday, packing and going on our Trip to Danang (Vietnam) and the latest....I'm POSITIVE for the 2nd.

The 1st worry that came to mind was I am to stop breast feeding of Ashlynn. She has turned 1yr and she has adapted well to cow's milk. But at nite she needs a last suckle before going to bed. Gosh.....I'm a cow. I got to stop coz I do feel tummy cramps after feeding her and I reckon its contractions. My gynae's nurse told me on the phone that I will have to stop. Ok Ashlynn shall have to undergo cold Turkey tonite.

Some series shots of Vietnam coming soon. So 1st presenting Miss Saigon.