A letter to Ashlynn and bb Andrelle

Dear kids of mine,

thank you for quickly promoting my status to be a mother of two. Honestly, I will miss the threesome time I have with only Ashlynn but at the same time Daddy has reassured that it would soon be double the fun of coz sometimes double the trouble. However, God has this amazing trick of making us forget the troubles you girls would cause as time goes by.

Ashlynn, when I was 1st preg with you I told my students I was going to go through the au natural way of birth. No medicine nothing. But when the time came, it was alittle tiring going with the contractions. So it was epidural. And you came out through the birth canal after a short while.

Andrelle, you will come out to see the world and meet your elder sister tmr morning. You have a strong mind of your own. Like the meaning of your name, gosh you would not turn head down since Feb. Mummy's love ones, and friends have prayed but no avail. I think you have your reasons and we shall only know when mummy goes under the knife tmr morning. Though this time its going to be assisted, and you have made mummy worried and anxious. I'm going to tell you I had the most enjoyable 2nd pregnancy. My complexion was good, I could actively take care of Ashlynn and daddy and my overall weight gain was slow and steady.

Ashlynn you too have been anxious about Andrelle, hugging mummy's tummy every now and then, dancing to a giant balloon, playing your toy piano for 'mei mei'. I hope you both will grow up close and love each other. I await the 1st shot I can get of both of you in my arms.

Our last wkend as a family of 3 before going on to 4.

Gynae's 2nd attempt

Doc made attempt to turn the bb during my last visit in wk 38. Her butt was shifted out of my pelvic and she was in this terrible position that made me feel so choked in the tummy. I have been more uncomfortable and pain than now. Pubic bone hurts big time and I cant thing of the reason why, she is turning but I really have no idea how she is positioned inside. On one hand I wish she pops soon on the other I want her in there longer giving her more time to spin. I know she will try her best. Given her weight gain the last 2 weeks. She has out'weigh' Ashlynn to be 3.3kg and still ballooning.
This episode has brought some of my friends closer to be through their rational practical encouragements. Friends whom I last spoke to years ago have been giving me moral support. Besides hub and my family, these friends have been an amazing bunch of people. Even if I have to go under the knife I would be prepared. Although I wonder what made her not turn around this time, was it all the squats, climbs etc I had to make because I had to care for Ashlynn?? I really doubt it. Next checkup is Tue and then we will know what the final decision will be. fingers crossed and in prayer.

In control

I've been worried since the last time I went for my checkup at my gynae. The baby inside is still head up...meaning breech. She decided to somersault after our family trip to down under. Doc jokingly mentioned that she wants to go down under too. Gosh.... I am not looking forward to another episotomy but the idea of a c-section is not comforting. I feel I am no more in control over matters. Just have to leave it to fate and faith. Hub drove me to Lighthouse church yesterday afternoon. I wanted a revenue to vent my worries etc, the church was modern not the old ie kind that I used to go when I was alittle girl. It was empty and went a lday popped out of the ofiice to offer help, asking us who we were looking for, I openly said "God". Then we were invited into an office where this nice uncle gave us a brief intro of the church. He said prayers for us before we left. But I hadnt sat down on the pews and say my prayers yet, that was the key aim. Anyway, that was so much anxiety and worry in my brain I just told this complete stranger uncle that the baby was breech and I was here to seek prayers. In tears, mind u....what a cry baby. I'm leaving it to god now.........believe in him.